Interview with Ca$hback

Tell us a little bit about yourself. What kind of car do you drive, what's your favorite tv show, and where were you born or currently live?

Sorry I took so long. Well, let's see...I'm 24, I work for a life insurance company. I take mass transit and don't even own a car. I've lived in TO (Toronto, Ontario) for less than a year and so far I've found it to be a very superficial city, a trendy joke. I love 50's sci-fi, old black and white shows, futurama, bad (low quality) movies and general cult films. In real life I'm polite, meek and uncompetative, which would give some the impression that I'm an underachiever. I'm coming out of a filthy common-law breakup and I've kinda used this place for a therapy of sorts, as well as an unorthodox education on psychology.

What did you think of the movie Orgasmo?

There are only two kinds of kids in this world...

those who like Animaniacs, and those who don't like Animaniacs.

Which are you?

I like animaniacs. Wacko's cooler than Yacko or Dot.
I thought orgasmo was colorful, nauseating and disposable. It was better than The Mist though.

Meme, I originally wanted you to do my interview (ask Ky) and I think it would be more interesting now that you have an impression of me. I would be honored. No that wasn't sarcastic. No...that wasn't sarcastic either...fuck...

Keep in mind it's not necessarily an introduction, even though it seems implied.

Whenever




or never







and stuff...

What is your most vivid memory from childhood?

I'm interested you should ask. Is this some kind of masochistic desire for a harsh intrusive interrogation rather than a normal interview? Strange indeed!

Tell you what: Since yesterday, you said that all my posts are now predictable, I offer you a challenge:

Decide what questions I would have asked you if I had been doing the interview, and ask them yourself and answer them. I'll keep watch on this thread, and tell you if you ask yourself anything I wouldn't have asked you.

OK? How's that?

And at your signature, Andy. I wonder how long you'll keep up your resolve!

By the way, as I noticed when reading your thing in the Creative Writing forum I revamped, your punctuation is absolutely appalling! And I mean, absolutely appalling! The punctuation in your signature illustrates it - what's that apostrophe doing?

What? I still can't make you speak to me?

Allright Ratbag, I didn't feel like interviewing you at first; but then I decided such a thing might have potential:

So, first question: (OK, it's an essay question)

State which of the following quotes has a personal meaning for you, and explain why. Illustrate with anecdotes from your life:

I have no regrets. I wouldn't have lived my life the way I did if I was going to worry about what people were going to say. --Ingrid Bergman

You will do foolish things, but do them with enthusiasm. --Colette

Try as hard as we may for perfection, the net result of our labors is an amazing variety of imperfectness. We are surprised at our own versatility in being able to fail in so many different ways. --Samuel McChord Crothers

After all, one knows one's weak points so well, that it's rather bewildering to have the critics overlook them and invent others. --Edith Wharton

Some have been thought brave because they were afraid to run away. --Thomas Fuller

Both optimists and pessimists contribute to the society. The optimist invents the aeroplane, the pessimist the parachute. --George Bernard Shaw

It is easy to be brave from a safe distance. --Aesop

I've developed a new philosophy... I only dread one day at a time. --Charlie Brown (Charles Schulz)

All of us are born with a set of instinctive fears--of falling, of the dark, of lobsters, of falling on lobsters in the dark, or speaking before a Rotary Club ... --Dave Barry

How many pessimists end up by desiring the things they fear, in order to prove that they are right. --Robert Mallet

I try to take one day at a time, but sometimes several days attack me at once. --Jennifer Yane

There cannot be a stressful crisis next week. My schedule is already full. --Henry Kissinger

All sorts of bodily diseases are produced by half-used minds. --George Bernard Shaw

Argue for your limitations and, sure enough, they're yours. --Richard Bach, (Illusions)

How beautiful it is to do nothing, and then to rest afterward. --Spanish Proverb

Hope is the feeling we have that the feeling we have is not permanent. --Mignon McLaughlin

Marriage is an adventure, like going to war. --Gilbert Keith Chesterton

To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering, one must not love. But, then one suffers from not loving. Therefore, to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer, to suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love, to be happy then, is to suffer, but, suffering makes one unhappy, therefore, to be unhappy one must love,
or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down. --Woody Allen (in Love and Death, 1975)

Strike an average between what a woman thinks of her husband a month before she marries him and what she thinks of him a year afterward, and you will have the truth about him. - --H.L. Mencken, (A Book of Burlesques, 1916)

Nature made us individuals, as she did the flowers and the pebbles; but we are afraid to be peculiar, and so our society resembles a bag of marbles, or a string of mold candles. Why should we all dress after the same fashion? The frost never paints my windows twice alike. --Lydia Maria Child

My theory is that the hardest work anyone does in life is to appear normal. --From the movie Ed TV

Let the world know you as you are, not as you think you should be, because sooner or later, if you are posing, you will forget the pose, and then where are you? --Fanny Brice

A successful person is one who can lay a firm foundation with the bricks that others throw at him or her. --David Brinkley

God forgive me for having thought it possible that a schoolmaster could be out and out a rational being. --Sir Walter Scott

Stand firm in your refusal to remain conscious during algebra. In real life, I assure you, there is no such a thing as algebra. - Fran Leibowitz

That terrible mood of depression of whether it's any good or not is what is known as The Artist's Reward. --Ernest Hemingway

This is my depressed stance. When you're depressed, it makes a lot of difference how you stand. The worst thing you can do is straighten up and hold your head high because then you'll start to feel better. If you're going to get any joy out of being depressed, you've got to stand like this. --Charlie Brown

I believe there are more urgent and honorable occupations than the incomparable waste of time we call suffering. --Colette

Speak when you are angry and you will make the best speech you will ever regret. --Ambrose Bierce

Anybody can become angry, that is easy; but to be angry with the right person, and to the right degree, and at the right time, and for the right purpose, and in the right way, that is not within everybody's power, that is not easy. --Aristotle

Temper tantrums, however fun they may be to throw, rarely solve whatever problem is causing them. --Lemony Snicket

In arguing, too, the parson own'd his skill, For even though vanquished he could argue still. --Oliver Goldsmith

I keep trying to lose weight... but it keeps finding me! --Author Unknown

The biggest seller is cookbooks and the second is diet books - how not to eat what you've just learned how to cook. --Andy Rooney

My doctor told me to stop having intimate dinners for four. Unless there are three other people. --Orson Welles

If you really want to be depressed, weigh yourself in grams. --Jason Love

The older you get, the tougher it is to lose weight, because by then your body and your fat are really good friends. --Author Unknown

I'm allergic to food. Every time I eat it breaks out into fat. --Jennifer Greene Duncan

Gluttony is an emotional escape, a sign something is eating us. --Peter De Vries

I bought a talking refrigerator that said "Oink" every time I opened the door. It made me hungry for pork chops. --Marie Mott

I think bruce lee kicks ass. I got my first copy of the Tao of Jeet Kune Do at the age of ten and it has progressively made more sense to me over the years. I feel the last quote sums it up quite well
"If people say JKD is different from this or different from that then let the name of JKD be forgotten. That's all it is, just a name, please don't fuss over it."
I think it makes a great point about spirituality (if you ave any) being personal. It doesn't matter what you call it, everybody probably has a different impression. For me, it was pretty much the second-last nail in the coffin for belief in the supernatural. I go with my gut and my gut doesn't have angels in it. I think our meager existence as an anomaly on a rock is quite a fortunate experience many atoms in this univers may never share, whether they notice it or not.

(off to the pub) Cheers, and thanks Meme.

I'll continue tomorrow sometime.

Sorry, Crashback, but what you said makes absolutely no sense to me! I have no choice but to ruthlessly appraise it in order to illustrate why.

Firstly, it appears to be a non sequitur. I'm fairly sure most people would interpret the quote, "Argue for your limitations and, sure enough, they're yours", to mean that you can hold yourself back in life by being convinced you're no good at certain things. For instance, if someone suggests you do a bit of public speaking and you insist, "But I'm absolutely no good at public speaking", then you'll never get any better, because you won't set your mind to trying.

I don't know what on earth you took the quote to mean! You didn't explain. And that's another problem with what you said in general - you need to explain where you're coming from more.

For instance, just saying you like Bruce Lee doesn't give us any insight into why, which is what we really want in an interview. I, for one, would like to know whether he does anything besides hitting and kicking and otherwise fighting people, being unfamiliar with Bruce Lee films.

And what on earth is the "Tao of Jeet Kune Do"? Never assume your audience has the same knowledge of films and books you do. The likelihood is that their interests will be totally different from yours, and that they'll never have heard of what you're making reference to. So you need to explain what such things are.

Since I don't know what the "Tao of Jeet Kune Do" is, it follows that your comments about how it's changed your outlook on life also don't make sense to me. Why has it changed your outlook on life - exactly what was it about it that did it? That's the kind of thing your audience will want to know.

Because you have not explained what the context of the quote is, it follows that the quote itself isn't going to make much sense to those unfamiliar with the concepts of the book or film or whatever it is. On the face of it, the quote sounds idiotic, unless it's meant to be humorous, because names are not just names; they represent things. A person's name will represent what they stand for, what they've achieved in life, etc. If someone said, "If people say Winston Churchill is different from this or different from that then let the name of Winston Churchill be forgotten", do you expect anyone would agree? You need to explain the significance of the name before a quote like that can make sense to us. If, as you suggest, it represents something supernatural, then you need to explain the reasoning behind such a statement as the quote, before it can make any sense. For instance, what relevance does the "different from this or different from that" bit have?

Again, this will be lost on your audience, apart from any who have knowledge of the films/book or whatever it is. Not having familiarity with it or understanding the bit you quoted, it follows that any who don't won't have a clue about exactly what point it could be making about spirituality being personal.

Another thing you need to do is to define what you/it means by spirituality. People have different concepts of what the word spirituality means, and since you relate it to a disbelief in the supernatural, which many would not, then you need to explain how you're defining it.

Again, since you haven't explained what the film/book actually is, then that statement won't make sense to an audience unfamiliar with it. They won't know why it convinced you not to believe in the supernatural.

Naturally! You seem to be saying you don't believe in the supernatural simply because your "gut" tells you it isn't true. That does not make sense, and here's why: It would be like me saying,

"I believe Cashback is in all probability a subclinical psychopath, selfish and lacking in empathy, immature and irresponsible, emotionally violent, and only concerned about the way things directly relate to him; and I believe that because that's what my gut says."

I'd need more evidence than just what my gut told me before I could make an informed judgment on the matter!

I suppose it's possible that you could have interpreted the quote about limitations you supposedly based your post on to be about being unsupernatural, i.e. limited as in not having supernatural qualities; but this would make no sense. You would then have to take a quote that said, "Argue for your limitations, and sure enough, they're yours", to mean that if you believe you are not a supernatural being and can argue your case, then you won't be a supernatural being. That would be stupid, like me saying that if I can claim to be a river and put up some semblance of an argument for my case, like saying I'm made up of mostly water, that makes me a river.

If you didn't relate the original quote about limitations to this, I can't find anything at all in your post it could possibly have been related to. You need to explain how you think the quote you're basing what you say on relates to it in future, unless it's obvious.

Since most atoms are and always will be part of inanimate things, of course they're not going to notice it!

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Right! If you want me to continue interviewing you, you're going to have to take into account everything I've said and do better.

Since you said a few days ago that everything I say is now predictable, you really should have been able to predict I was going to say all this and not said what you said! On your own head be my criticism of you!

Right! Before you say anything else, you need to predict how I'm likely to respond to what you're considering saying next time, and make sure you say something I'm going to respond to more favourably.

Of course, you could always duck out of the interview instead. :-7

So much effort! Where to begin...
I predict you will respond with
-feigned/sarcastic attempts to seem helpful to a person who you percieve as having problems that particularly annoy you
-frustrated persistance
-a lot of pretty and unescessary words put together in a critical/appraising fashion
-ask me a lot of questions either to pretend to want to know more about me or to put me in an awkward position
-keep me amused as long as I keep the right outlook
-defame my character or provide me with further opportunities to do so
-Subtly or boldly assert your innocence regarding your repetative criticism of others of it comes into question
-Have nerdy, well deserved insults for me
-Waste 10 times more time on me than I do on you

Of course, now that you know the gist of what I think your next post will sound like you may respond with anything but what I've described. You'd probably consider that so I'd say my chances are 50/50. My heart won't be broken if I'm way off.

Now, fun stuff...

(I'm also a repressed homosexual, and I'm pretty sure women hate me) Not bad. Maybe you should trust your intuition more.

Exactly. I'm really gonna hurt people some day because I'm still pissed off and mortified by 12 years of fellow students at school. I think you overreact sometimes from my posts.

How much time do you spend on me? I can't help but take it as respectful and feel kinda bad because that must have taken quite a few minutes to write. I mean, I'm not challenging, I'm not smart, I'm not serious...I can't help but think there's something about me that you have a deep rooted problem with and it's not just the stupidity of my posts (which I've been comlimented on occasionally). Something about me has eaten at you a little. You're putting little pieces of my lies and garbage together to make me out in your head into something that actually exists somewhere and scares you because of the potential malice contained within that will most likely be directed at women in a sadistic fashion. Since most of it goes way over my head anyway, are you expecting people to come in and see how well you're thrashing me? I'm like a smart-mouthed gatepost egging you on and encouraging your swings as you chop me up with a sword that's dulling quickly. Perhaps sharpen it and use it on a someone less futile and just give me a good swift kick once in a while when you're passing by.
As much as I apreciate the intent, whatever it was, I think I'm going to duck out of the interview for a bit after a little on topic explaination.

Bruce Lee was a gardner with great ambition. Who knew that a strong body would help him acquire many women so he set out to do many push-ups (the manly kind). He also loved birthdays.
One day, when he was lifting a piano (cause that's what manly-men do), he injured his back and got laid up in hospital where they also discovered he had testicular cancer. Although his testicles were removed he resolved to continue his journey to be strong, not for the women, but for the men. While recovering from the surgery and the wrong medication he wrote the Tao of Jeet Kune Do to tell everyone what's wrong with Karate, not to take the elevator, always kick someone when they're down, be like water because it takes the shape of it's container, and that there are no limits, just plateus (unless you die). He also liked to eat bacon and eggs. That's what my dad told me anyway, bruce died before I was born. I hope that helps put it in perspective. The tao of jeet kune do always made me wonder about the christian imagery of god, the bible, the routines and doctrines and how it seemed to be like one size of jacket everyone is supposed to fit into and it will be effective for it's purpose as long as they do it right. Much like karate, or wing chun. There's an assumption that if you find a way that works better for you that you just weren't doing it the old way properly. You asked for an anecdote regarding why the quote was important to me.
Pride has always seemed so useless, but being stubborn for the sake of being stubborn, that can be fun. I've found many of my hangups are about being confined, told what to do or being judged seriously based on my sarcasm and lighthearted foolishness that people miss or detest. It's annoying but people get to know me and find I'm not always not serious when I'm not being silly just because sometimes I'm serious when I'm being silly (usually).

Truth: I have a little guilt because I could have treated my ex better when we were together. I was selfish and she was there for me. I internalize it and stay away from the opposite sex as far as romance is concerned for their sake. Sure a girl may like me, until she gets to know me or sees how selfish I am. So I feel like the only fair course of action is avoidance of romance (sex fals into this category for me too). Of course, I'm judging my own selfishness and it can be tough to judge yourself accurately. Would you believe I'm not a bad guy in real life? Do you pretend we don't all have a desire to hurt those who hurt us at some point because people keep picking and picking and picking and picking and picking and picking and picking and picking, or that we all have fantasies, some more detailed and extreme than others (not all of us day-dream about daffodils and manatees). So far I haven't stabbed anybody. I don't have sadistic daydreams on a monthly or daily basis even. I'm already in therapy, the kind anyone would benefit from (couch and talk about the bullshit, blame your parents etc.) which I pay handsomely for.

There, I spent some time and don't feel too bad about leaving you a short post.

Well, I did warn you I was going to be ruthless, didn't I. Twice in fact, once at the beginning of my post, and once in a previous one.

Personal amusement made the effort worth my while, and in fact was the primary motivator.

You're right; perhaps it would have sufficed to merely say, "You jerk". But that isn't really my style.

Neither, actually.

Indeed.

About your first entirely correct prediction. Congratulations.

Your communication skills are what's in question right now, because you're not being specific enough in your observation for me to really know what you mean by "repetitive" criticism. Thus, I will have to guess.

I think that by far the most "repetitive" criticism I've made on here - which you're ironically obliging me to repeat yet again! is the one I've repeated because it's been disputed, and because different people have brought it up - my criticisms about Foolosophy being banned while StillPond said much worse things, including beginning to regularly make ignorant implications about OCD sufferers being crazy and drooling in the corner and being morally sick and other things, which I found unacceptable, particularly because I've done a bit of work with people suffering from OCD and other anxiety disorders, and know many of them would be upset to find things that added to their stigmatisation, and know they're in a high state of anxiety a lot of the time so they'd be more vulnerable to such insults than most people would be; and after I was merely met with abuse from Stillpond after mentioning similar things, I took the matter further. If I've made enemies here because I did that, I won't be losing a second of sleep over it, because I don't want friends who don't care about such matters. And any criticism levelled at me for having done what I did is likely to be derived from crass ignorance and indignation at what I did to a mate of theirs, no matter what he said to deserve it, so I have absolutely no respect for it, and again, certainly won't be losing any sleep over it!

Of course, if that wasn't what you meant when you criticised me for my "repetitive criticism", then if you'd only been more specific about what you did mean, you could have avoided having to put up with my repetition of what I've said!

Note that I said subclinical psychopath, not psychopath. A Subclinical psychopath might never commit an act of violence in the whole of their lives. Psychopathy is on a continuum, from the totally unpsychopathic, if such people exist, to fully-fledged psychopaths. There are several personality traits on the psychopathy continuum, such as callousness, lack of empathy, impulsiveness/recklessness and other things, not just violence. People who fall into the category of subclinical psychopath might never be violent, as I said. They will, however, be destructive in other ways. They may behave in callous ways that cause their relationships to fail. They may behave at work in ways that stress their colleagues out.

If they're on an Internet forum, they may respond with comments like, "Do you expect me to remember that shit", when someone says they've done a bit of work with rape victims and is working on a project for formerly battered wives. They may put pictures of toilets and declare they just want to have fun in a thread all about a friend of a formerly battered woman trying to help her come to terms with her distress. They might be far more angry because one of their mates got hauled over the coals for something, than they are that that something was a bunch of insults that could upset mentally ill people and put new female members off the board. They might be too wrapped-up in themselves to want to listen to what other people are saying to them. They might well do a lot of similar things.

Not deep-rooted, but try everything in the above paragraph.

I'm hoping so.

Yes, I guessed it was going over your head. Otherwise, you wouldn't have picked up such impressions. That wasn't what I said at all. I was talking about the effect fantasies can have on anyone, not singling you out as someone a lot worse than anyone else. And I didn't say a thing about you possibly being sadistic towards women!

I believe almost anyone in the world could become a murderer, or deliberately seriously injure someone else. The only difference is the amount each individual needs to be pushed before they'll commit such an act. And there are several variables that mean any one individual would need to be pushed more at some times than at others. For instance, one variable is that if they were angry already, it might take less for them to be pushed beyond their tolerance limits than if they were totally relaxed when they were provoked. Or someone who's tolerated abuse from a husband for years might put up with it until one day she finds him having an affair, and she could put up with the abuse as long as she thought he was being faithful, but having put up with all that from someone who she discovers isn't even faithful might provoke her into a rage that makes her kill him, and she might severely regret it when she's calmed down.

Fantasies are just another of the variables. Anyone who fantasizes Regularly about hurting someone would probably be more likely to actually do what they'd been fantasizing about doing if they actually met the person and the person made them angry. If they hadn't been fantasizing about hurting them, they still might, but if they've been fantasizing in detail about doing something really horrid, that'll be more likely to be the first thing it occurs to them to actually do than something less damaging. That's what I was saying. There would have to be provocation there before someone who fantasized about something they wouldn't normally want to do would actually do it.

As for you, I expect under normal circumstances, you're about as scary as a bowl of soggy old weetabix that've been hanging around, and perhaps have much the same effect on people. Most of your posts leave me with a similar feeling to the one I have on encountering one of those.

Oh yes, was that that post by MPDC where he once said he liked your sense of humour?

Smart-mouthed? There, you have far too high an opinion of yourself.

The problem is that when you tell lies on here, we've got no way of knowing whether they're lies, or whether you're telling the truth. How can we, if we don't know you?

I suspect this conversation may be pointless, and so I agree we should give it a break. Thanks for the explanation about Bruce Lee. It still left several questions unanswered and created new sources of bafflement, but never mind.

By the way, I think the board thoroughly redeemed itself yesterday by what it did to John. I can forgive Foolosophy's ban now, and will promise to stop being so repetitively critical of it.

I'd got the impression that Oddity was good friends with John. But I was obviously wrong - get that, Wrong - the first mistake I've ever made in my life, clearly; and Oddity isn't as bad as I thought.

Very nice.
A couple points:

Ruthless? Not even underhanded. Quite the opposite, really. You pulled a lot of punches, gave me a lot of textbook psychology and weren't quite so critical as I seemed to expect you to be.

You've suspected that about a lot of our conversations, I suspect.

I think you know what I mean but I'll rephrase it. I'm an almost-always-have-something-annoying-to-say-mouthed gatepost.

Exactly.

I don't remember DDT saying anything but Yawn, oddy, kyman, pond and a few others have. Though perhaps you may only respect kyman.

Soggy old weetabix left out on the table friday morning by your son for you to clean up after work on monday while he skips school to go drinking. I find it funny that you're amused by the feeling it gives you.

Is a desire to waste your time a form of massochism? I wonder if you've made "progress" with me. If that's not your aim, I'm not particularly responsive to your ridicule, at least, I don't think I'm supposed to be enjoying it...

Or I choose to be oblivious.

Yet you picked me as an example regarding my dislike of being bullied and made it sound like "anyone who has fantasies like this is a potential danger to society" which goes without saying for anyone regardless of the fantasies.

When you combine impressions of mysogyny with sadistic fantasy (which you seem to take more seriously than me) what am I supposed to think you're insinuating about me? I'm surprised, I was expecting you to use the ample ammo I gave you with that one sentance to make me out to be even worse than you thought at first. Hmm. Gotta give you credit for not being petty there.

Thanks for that.

I don't believe you but okay, it's your mind.

I don't need to go into more detail, that's what you do most of the time. You're a critic. Point out to people where they're incorrect seemingly with the desire to talk yourself up. You make a few suggestions here and there but basically try to show your superiority over others by being critical, occasionally condescending and sanctimonious (though not exclusively). At least you aren't too patronizing. I'm not saying criticising others is wrong but the feeling I get from you and the amusement you say you derive from us could be considered insulting. You have also seemed rather vindictive on here, particularly against dragon and stillpond but that's my impression. You decide they deserve it, that's your choice but I can't imagine you're surprised by some of the moderates (you know, the other 42% of the sociopaths you described) are saying they're annoyed with you. I'm sure you have some that appreciate you too. As amazing as it is a few people believe I contribute and apreciate my presence.

How tailor made.

But you can come in to a thread we were seriously discussing because you have a vendetta against someone and bring up off topic shit to remind everyone of where that persons stands on another issue. It seems to have the sole purpose of annoying the person you're after. Yet you call me vindictive. How many times have I chased your posts around like you have stiil's or dragon's? Oh, but they desrved it.

I thought you'd been here about s long as me.

And you're here to either clean us up or dispose of us?

Mmmm. So I'm supposed to send them christmas cards and say sorry for all the embarrassment I've suffered so they could have a great time and be popular and enjoy school while I and many like me dreaded every day, or how I'm sorry I never told on you to give you an excuse to curb stomp me? Nope. I'm gonna take out my fantasies on everyone else because I think about them several times a day. I snowball myself into an uncontrollable rage and tear at my hair, clothes and skin. You weren't making a point about the fantasies, you were making a point about my fantasies and you insinuated that I think about it every day and am nothing but bitter and twisted. A couple women seem to be okay with stilly's "abuse", you aren't, perhaps bitter is bothered by it too but I haven't noticed anything. She's quite intelligent and I don't seem to bother her though I could be mistaken.

Significance is rather subjective.

Absolutely, especially if they could get away with it.

A statement of the obvious. You're speaking of potential.

You like that word too, eh.

Well, I guess I'm not totally ignorant

I'll take that as a compliment (under the assumption it applies to me)

apparent lack of empathy,

that really applies to anybody, doesn't it?

Like constant confusion about how you're "supposed" to feel about the way people ridicule you because any way you feel about it is considered "wrong"?

Or attempt to be a good, generous, compassionate person in order to preserve what little that is left that seems to matter and fail miserably because it was an impossible task from the get-go?

Or work harder to either develop honest noteriety or be appreciated rather than considered trash of the planet for being different? Or perhaps reclusive to avoid social situations all together out of feelings of inadequacy due to the bombardment of people's impressions that you aren't worth being considered human? Maybe people try harder in real life because it matters more to them than it does online. Hmmm.

I wonder why you seem to be the only one I have trouble communicating with.

So you're oblivious to your own nitpicking? I realize a lot of your criticism isn't necessarily serious but you do criticise a lot of the people a lot of the time. I don't need to elaborate, pick one. I don't think it's a problem on topic but you do it. There are also times where you've followed a person you don't like around seemingly to make sure everyone knows he's an asshole. You've developed a pattern to your words I can't quite pick out yet but that's only cause I'm completely stupid. Some of the smarter members have caught on. I'm working on it.

Ah, the competative nature of one-upmanship. Tell me, how do you feel about "being so much better" than someone like me (considering the impression of me you've got)? Have you overcome a great challenge? Are you proud of yourself for a job well done? I might be enjoying this more than you. It's not that I don't get insulted, it's just that I'm desensitized to people throwing shit at me, whether they or I think I deserve it or not.

Be like water, my freind.

Now I'm gonna duck out again on this interview. Take a break at the cafe and smoke a ciggarette.

Right, it's really time for you to shut up now! Do you really think I'm going to want to wade through all that garbage, when your basic message is that you don't want to listen to what I say, and your responses clearly indicate that you not only don't, but that you form simplistic opinions based on who knows what!? Talking to you is becoming intensely wearisome. It's not amusing any more and it's probably fruitless, so I'm rapidly losing interest in doing so. Any more long posts from you and I may very well start to want to kill you. So stop. Either that, or start paying me very handsomely indeed for my time.

I don't care enough to be bothered if you don't listen to anything I say. You're going to be the one who's losing out by not paying attention when people say things like what I said in another thread:

Don't listen, and it'll just keep happening. It won't bother me if it does, but I know it bothers you, because you complain about being accused of being sanctimonious and that you get dismissed as an idiot when you try to be serious. Really, is it any wonder?! Things aren't going to change if you don't. Again, that isn't going to bother me, because I'm not nice enough; but with your history of complaining about the matter, I know it's going to bother you.

Perhaps if I'd really wanted you to listen, because my focus had been on trying to help you rather than primarily just venting, I would have phrased what I said nicely so it would have been easier to take. But imagine doing all that only to get the same message from you - that you're not interested in listening! Now that Would have been annoying!

I don't find most of your posts amusing. I meant they give me a feeling liable to be produced by something lame, insipid and mildly disgusting.

I didn't "combine" them; I said some of your posts seemed misogyny-tinged in a totally different post to the one where I was talking about sadistic fantasies to you in the Perceptions thread.

Oh cut out the silly garbage! If you can't see beyond "This person's being critical!" to being able to follow what the conversation's actually about, then This conversation will inevitably be pointless, because you won't be able to follow it well either! Other people have objected to you making the same types of comments about them, probably for similar reasons.

As for what I said about it amusing me, I didn't mean I find criticising people in general amusing; I'm talking about the sparring, often fairly light-hearted type that goes on all the time and which most people partake in here amusing. The sad fact is that when I cease to find my interaction with people here amusing, entertaining or interesting, I begin to find it dreary or irritating. That was primarily where StillPond began to go wrong - he wasn't entertaining enough. I have, however, got an idea or two on how to train him to amuse me better, which I intend to try. So maybe all is not lost. But when I'm finding my interaction with people amusing, they ought to be thankful, because it means I'm at least viewing them with a certain amount of favour. When I cease to find them amusing, as I'm ceasing to find this conversation amusing, that's when people need to start worrying.

What are you talking about! For one thing, sociopaths by their definition tend not to be moderates. For another, you seem to have the impression that nearly half the board is annoyed with me. Perhaps you're right; but how do you know? You've carried out a secret poll, perhaps? Hey, show me. :-7

The truth is that very few people on here could bother me by saying they're annoyed with me. Everybody probably annoys everybody else sometimes.

And you have to bring Dragon into this, of course, as always, your tragic hero. Thanks. First laugh of this post.

If you mean it's a ready-made example I plucked out from another thread, of course it was meant to be. Of course, I was deliberately referring to when I told you I'd done a bit of work with rape victims etc. and you responded, "Do you think I remember that shit". With such unempathic and self-focused responses as that, is it any wonder you gain the epithet "sub-clinical psychopath"?

Oh where have I ever done that?! And what relevance does that have to what you did anyway?! If I ever did do that, does it justify you behaving like a crass immature, self-focused idiot? I thought you might at least give me an excuse for your behaviour. And never mind that I've told you 31720 times that you need to be more specific in your accusations if you want people to actually understand what you say, you're still not giving me any examples to help me understand what you're talking about. I'm seriously, seriously getting annoyed with you now! I think I've had enough of your garbage to last 300 years, and if I receive any more on this level, I'll put you on ignore.

And it's funny how you're still mentioning Dragon, even though I haven't even had a conversation with him for months!

If I ever have to talk to you for this long again, I'll probably become afflicted with a horrifying and depressing sense of my own mortality, derived from having wasted so much of my short life that I could have been spending on much more productive and fun things than spending time with someone with a simplistic understanding of things who clearly isn't interested in anyone else's point of view, and insists on inflicting his warped ideas on people and not moderating them whatever they say, but stubbornly holding to an outlook derived purely from his own biases, based on who has complimented him most or is happiest to descend to his level of bawdy banter.

As for that stuff about fantasies, you have a grossly simplistic view of what I said, and if you went back and read it again, you'd realise that.

Now shut up, because you're seriously boring and annoying me. StillPond and Dragon have never annoyed me anywhere near as much as you are now. At least their posts are usually short. I wouldn't have minded you talking rubbish if you'd only done it for a few lines. But going on for this long is really trying my patience. I will never, never again spend anywhere near this long talking to you. In fact, right now, I would rather never talk to you again at all. If you still want to be interviewed, find someone else! Right now, I hope I never have to converse with you again. It won't be worth your while writing another of your long spiels, because unless it's of a seriously higher quality than your last pile of nonsense, it'll simply precipitate my finger on the ignore button!

That's an extremely easy one. Most people here don't try to communicate with you seriously. I have not done so in general till the past couple of days either, and thus, I've had no problem either up until now.

That's absolute nonsense. StillPond may have accused me of doing that once, but it should have been obvious I was doing no such thing. Time you started thinking for yourself instead of following the party line of your bawdy mates!

Now shut up. I don't want to hear from you again, unless you seriously change your style and try to bring a little more sophistication into your analysis of things! If you don't, you can consider it almost inevitable that I'll zap you with that good old ignore function.

even tho this thread makes me want to fuckin puke(the virus i guess), i wanted to ask you a few questions my friend


in todays time and the age that you are, why do you smoke cigarettes?
do you think all the health concerns and global warming is a buncha hoopla?
do you skate?
what was the worst experience that youve had thus far?
what was the best experience that youve had thus far?
what is yer education?
what do you like to do (other than stalking) for fun?
will you be working the job you are at for the rest of yer life or do you have a greater dream of what you will be doing?

whats yer favorite:

color?
food?
tree?
past time?
car?
sport?
geographical location?
movie?
song?
band?




now take yer time and hurry up!

no!


you shut up!


fucker

Pond!!!!!

You know I was saying you could be one of my favourites on the board if only you'd insult me a different way so it made me laugh? Well, let me show you how I want you to insult me.

Here's how to insult me if you want to get to be one of my favourites - you have to say things like Foolosophy used to, like:

You see, Pond, if you can insult me like that, then you'll make me laugh, and you'll be one of my favourites on the board.